You might have noticed that my blog was kind of dead for the last three years. I really feel like I need to give you an explanation. But I also want you to know that I am back now. And I am planning to make this blog better than it ever was!
Read more after the jump. . .
About my health
When I got pregnant of our little boy a little over three years ago I was so happy, but I also got really, really sick. I had extreme pregnancy nausea. There was nothing I could eat or drink, so I had to walk around with a feeding tube for more than five months. During those nine months the nausea never completely went away, but luckily my last two months where doable. But because of my sickness I wasn’t able to blog. I just couldn’t do it, I was to bussy with surviving.
When Rens was born the nausea went away immediately and I got this beautiful and amazing little boy in return. But because of a difficult labour my already existing instability issues where so much worse that I couldn’t even sit on a chair. Yay! Physiotherapy didn’t work, revalidation worked, but not enough. And then, when Rens turned two I just couldn’t live like that anymore. I needed something drastic so I could go on with my life.
I had gained a lot of weight after my pregnancy and I couldn’t lose it with dieting alone. I tried the gym a few times, but I failed every time because I wanted to much from my body. I had to stop because I was in to much pain.
When Rens turned two I really needed a different approach of my health problems. So I found a personal trainer. And that was something I should have done so much sooner. He told me about eating Paleo and that alone changed so much. I feel way better, my bowels are finally close to normal and my skin is better than it has been in years. In combination with his training sessions I also lost a lot of weight. I’m 20 kilo’s down from where I once was! I’m not where I want to be yet, but I couldn’t be happier with how my body is responding to this new diet and training regime.
How I am changed
Of course these health issues changed me. There where times that I just felt lost. It is hard if you can’t do the things you want to do. But there where so many good things in this period as well. Becoming a mom was the absolute most amazing thing that ever happened to me. Rens is worth everything I have been trough and more. I know some people might think I’m crazy, but I still dream of having a little brother or sister for Rens one day. That’s part of the reason that I am working so hard to get as healthy and strong as I possibly can.
Besides becoming a mom I also started my temporary tattoo business Tattoorary. I wasn’t able to sit on a chair for longer then 15 minutes or so, but I could work from home! This way I was able to bring income to our family again. That felt so good!
During my pregnancy I also came to know that I have ADD. I struggled a lot with the fine line between acceptance and excuses. Where does acceptance end and excuses start? I was afraid to accept anything because I didn’t want to use it as an excuse. Some ADD stuff is really easy to accept, like being extremely creative and resourceful. But being unorganized, messy and forgetful are not really things to be proud of. I don’t know if I will ever fully accept those things, but I do manage to get a way around most of them so they are not really that big of a problem anymore. Knowing that I have ADD made that I wasn’t as ashamed of my shortcomings anymore, it was easier to ask for help. I don’t take any medication for it, because I believe that there is nothing wrong with me. I might be different, I might have struggles, but so do other people. I don’t want to be normal, I just want to be the best version of me and medication will not help me with that.
What will change here
All of the above things changed me. Now I know who I am and what I want in life. I can accept my shortcomings (most of the time) and find a way around them. I eat healthy, feel way better and love my life as a mom and business owner. We did some DIY projects. I just didn’t blog about them. My blog didn’t really feel like a fit anymore. I started to think I needed a new blog, maybe in Dutch. But this ‘By Wilma’ blog is a part of me. Maybe I’m different now, but this blog has been a big part of my life in the past. So I decided to change the look of my blog, keep all the old posts and just start blogging again.
The recipes will be healthy and Paleo, the DIY projects will be a lot more boho and there will be kids projects. I also want to do a outfit post weekly. So a lot of changes!
If you have any questions, please let me know!
